wrestling with... accepting or being accepted?

I don’t "accept Christ."

Rather, I embrace Christ’s acceptance of me.

This is possible only as I repent… as I genuinely turn from my rejection of Jesus and receive Him.

Repentance is possible only because of the cross and the resurrection.

Thus… I cannot "accept Christ."

But…

I can embrace the acceptance of Christ, possible through the rejection He experienced on the cross, making me more than who I am as I turn away from all that I hold myself to be, so that I can become like the One who doesn’t have to accept me in the first place.

I've been wondering... in retrospect... how much confession in my life has been from the result of seeing God's holiness and being humbled to repent...

versus...

how much I've felt guilty for my choices.

Most of the time, I think it's the latter.