You can be confident that all that you've done is correct and track with God. There can be a thousand voices around you affirming the same, telling you that you have acted and chosen what is right. And yet when one voice tells you otherwise, it can drive you crazy wondering what happened.
Again, you didn't do anything wrong. You know this.
And yet this means nothing to the chaos internally and externally.
One thing to look forward to about standing before God? All the masks and games disintegrate.
Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. (1 Cor 13:12)